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IMPORTANT. October 10, 2012

Filed under: Uncategorized — erinhawk @ 5:20 am

Dear friends and family,

First of all, I am doing pretty well.  Our case is moving forward and will be admitted to the Supreme Court soon.  The ENTIRE dismissal was based on the fact that she would have brothers who are older than her.  Pages (from the Chief Justice) of praise for our family’s living environment, character, what we could provide this child, followed by descriptions of Urmila’s abandonment, then the acknowledgement that CARA, our sons’ teachers, family referrals, and the United States of America have approved us with gold stars… and then a couple of closing paragraphs stating that older siblings would leave Urmila’s “future in the dark”.  I’m not kidding.  And then… “Case disposed of”.

I don’t know how to put into words the love and compassion I felt with each and every word of your responses. There were mornings that I would re-read your posts.  “You will fight for her, because she is your daughter.”  Laughter from the story of a little boy’s perfectly wonderful reasoning about how HE would bring my child home!  Both the literally hundreds of messages on my personal Facebook page, and the powerful stories, advice and showers of kindness that you, my readers, have shared with me got me through my grief.  I am ready for the next step which is…

AMAZING news… My mom and I are going to see Urmila this coming November!!!  I am so out-of-my-mind excited, I don’t even know what to write.  We need our hearts renewed.  We need to hold each other in our arms and realize that this story will end well.  I trust and have faith that it will.  Not just end well, but end the way it was made to.  I still believe that my journey to my child will have a Disney ending.  Tears to fill an ocean, but those tears will be tears of happiness.

So it is here that I need to tell my readers that I have to temporarily suspend my blog.  I was passed along advice from our attorney that I need to stay as private as possible during our time in the Supreme Court.

For this reason, I will be setting up a Facebook page under the name:

Urmila Hawk-Miller

With this page I will be able to select who can view her story, making it the safest way to share the ups and the downs of this adoption.

I have also set up an email address so that you may email her (me) with any other comments/questions/concerns/rants/words of advice/love


There was NO WAY I was going to take down this blog without letting you know how the story turns out!  Once she is home and safe in my arms, I will start it up again.  It is truly an amazing relay we are running.  I know the finish line is just around the corner…

With so much love for all you have given me (us!),

Erin Hawk & family


10 Responses to “IMPORTANT.”

  1. Karla Says:

    I feel quite sad that I will not be able to continue on in this journey of yours. I pray for you and for Umilla. I understand the need for privacy though. I will continue to pray for your situation. Don’t forget to continue on with some of your adoption education. With this case prolonged you will forget much of what you have learned…keep on reading about attachment and neourodevelopment because it will become a huge part of your life when she comes home. I will be checking your blog to see when you get your “baby” home.
    We were in India last winter and spring and I am so excited that you get to go visit. I can still feel the warm, heavy air sitting on my skin. I look forward to the day I might return. Thinking of you, Karla

    • Erin Hawk Says:

      Hi Karla,
      Please feel free to either connect to her new Facebook page (just send over a request) (Urmila Hawk-Miller) or via her new email address: journeytourmila@hotmail.com I will be sending “newsletters” from any contacts that send me their address via email who wish to keep up with her story. Thank you so very much for praying for us. There are some days where I absolutely feel those prayers are giving me the peace and strength I need to keep up the fight. Yes, I will definitely continue to read, read, read any adoption literature I can find. You are so right to remind me that the REAL journey starts when our children come home! Thank you again for your kindness. It mean so much to me. Warmly, Erin Hawk

  2. Mummy Jenny Says:

    Dear Erin, I have been following your blog via another blogroll and I must say, this morning, the minute I saw a new post on your, I skipped all others and clicked to hear news about Urmila. My heart aches to hear what you and your family are going through. I am praying for a happy ending. God Bless you all.

  3. Kristen Says:

    DEFINITELY praying for this next step in your journey to bring Urmila home. I think you are very wise to proceed the way you are! I may be in India in November as well 🙂 I’m so happy for you that you will get to see her and spend time with her. Godspeed!

  4. Jenn Says:

    I love this blog.
    I can’t wait until you are home with your girl, and start it back up again.
    I am so happy you are going to see her. I can’t wait to hear all about it.
    I will look for you on facebook.

  5. sdgator Says:

    I’ve been blog-stalking you for awhile, and praying for you. We have a sibling group (two girls) from Pune, and India is very very close to my heart. I will be watching and waiting to see when you bring that sweet girl home!
    Keep up the good fight!
    Katie Patel

  6. Nancy Says:

    Thanks for letting us know how we can stay connected. Even though I don’t know you, I am so invested in seeing your daughter come home — and you can count me in as someone who will be praying like mad as you take your case to the Supreme Court. I am so, so thrilled that you get to visit in November — what a lifeline that will be for you and Urmila!

  7. Renae Blunt Says:

    I will continue to check this blog for that day when you can post that your daughter is FINALLY home 🙂 Thanks for giving us all an update…. you are in our hearts and prayers.

  8. Mirai Says:

    😥 I am so sad right now…… I can’t believe what happened in India! I looked on your facebook post. I am so sorry……… if their is anything I can do, I will do ANYTHING to help! 😦 movie? hot cocoa? dinner?

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